{"id":5847,"date":"2026-09-22T12:30:06","date_gmt":"2026-09-22T12:30:06","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thechapterstory.online\/?p=5847"},"modified":"2026-09-22T12:30:06","modified_gmt":"2026-09-22T12:30:06","slug":"part-15-raymonds-ledger-revealed-an-older-debt-david-had-buried-for-years-and-paying-it-back-could-no-longer-repair-what-was-lost","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thechapterstory.online\/?p=5847","title":{"rendered":"PART 15 \u2013 Raymond\u2019s Ledger Revealed an Older Debt David Had Buried for Years, and Paying It Back Could No Longer Repair What Was Lost"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>No one spoke for several minutes.<\/p>\n<p>The old house echoed differently now that most of the furniture was gone.<\/p>\n<p>Every sound carried.<\/p>\n<p>A car passing outside.<\/p>\n<p>The hum of the refrigerator.<\/p>\n<p>David\u2019s breathing.<\/p>\n<p>I remained standing with Raymond\u2019s loan agreement in my hands.<\/p>\n<p>The document was dated nine years earlier.<\/p>\n<p>Long before my husband became seriously ill.<\/p>\n<p>Long before the business nearly failed the first time.<\/p>\n<p>Long before Sarah forged my signature.<\/p>\n<p>The amount was enough to matter.<\/p>\n<p>Not enough to explain everything that came later.<\/p>\n<p>But enough to expose a pattern older than I had understood.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDid you forget this?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>David looked up.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThat is not an answer.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI mean it.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He rubbed his hands over his face.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI remember Dad helping me.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWith a loan.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou signed this.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThree payments were made.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He nodded.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnd then?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t remember.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Sarah stood several feet away.<\/p>\n<p>She looked as stunned as I felt.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou never told me about this.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>David glanced at her.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI forgot.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>She laughed bitterly.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou forgot owing your father that much money?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He flinched.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI guess.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Her voice sharpened.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou decided it didn\u2019t matter.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He stood.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSarah.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>She pointed toward the paper.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThis is exactly what we did later.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDon\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhy not?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBecause you forged my mother\u2019s signature.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnd you kept treating family money like it would eventually become yours.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I stepped between the argument before it grew.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cStop.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Both of them went quiet.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThis is not the place to use old mistakes as weapons.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Sarah looked away.<\/p>\n<p>David sat back down.<\/p>\n<p>I returned to the ledger.<\/p>\n<p>Raymond\u2019s notes were precise.<\/p>\n<p>Payment one.<\/p>\n<p>Payment two.<\/p>\n<p>Payment three.<\/p>\n<p>Then a line in red ink.<\/p>\n<p>David requested pause due cash-flow problem.<\/p>\n<p>Below that, six months later:<\/p>\n<p>Discussed restart. No payment.<\/p>\n<p>A year later:<\/p>\n<p>Told Margaret not to worry her.<\/p>\n<p>I stopped.<\/p>\n<p>My throat tightened.<\/p>\n<p>Raymond had deliberately hidden the unpaid loan from me.<\/p>\n<p>Not maliciously.<\/p>\n<p>Protectively.<\/p>\n<p>Or what he believed was protection.<\/p>\n<p>I sat down.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat?\u201d David asked.<\/p>\n<p>I handed him the ledger.<\/p>\n<p>He read the note.<\/p>\n<p>His face changed.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDad didn\u2019t tell you?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI thought you knew.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI didn\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Sarah remained silent.<\/p>\n<p>I looked at David.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDid your father ask for repayment after he got sick?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNot really.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat does not really mean?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHe said we\u2019d deal with it later.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnd then he died.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I closed my eyes.<\/p>\n<p>A familiar anger rose.<\/p>\n<p>Not at Raymond exactly.<\/p>\n<p>At the pattern.<\/p>\n<p>Even my husband had participated.<\/p>\n<p>He had believed keeping information from me would protect me from stress.<\/p>\n<p>David had learned that silence could be kindness.<\/p>\n<p>I had learned that absorbing burdens could be love.<\/p>\n<p>Sarah had learned that outcomes mattered more than honest process.<\/p>\n<p>Different habits.<\/p>\n<p>Same family.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat happened after he died?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>David looked ashamed.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI told myself the loan probably didn\u2019t matter anymore.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cTo whom?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cTo you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou never asked.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDid you consider it inheritance?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He swallowed.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cMaybe.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I laughed once.<\/p>\n<p>It hurt.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSo before you projected my estate into your finances, you had already done something similar with your father\u2019s.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He closed his eyes.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Sarah sat down on a packing box.<\/p>\n<p>For once, she said nothing.<\/p>\n<p>I looked at the ledger again.<\/p>\n<p>Raymond\u2019s handwriting became less steady in later entries.<\/p>\n<p>The final note related to the loan appeared six months before his death.<\/p>\n<p>Need to settle David account after recovery.<\/p>\n<p>There had been no recovery.<\/p>\n<p>Only decline.<\/p>\n<p>And apparently no settlement.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI\u2019m paying it,\u201d David said.<\/p>\n<p>I looked up.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWith what?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhatever it takes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThat sounds dramatic.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI mean it.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou just lost your business.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI have a job.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou rent a townhouse.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou have children.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou\u2019re repaying Thomas.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I held up the agreement.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnd now you want to add a nine-year-old loan because guilt feels urgent.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>His face tightened.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cIt\u2019s still owed.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cTo you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cLegally maybe. Morally, I don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat does that mean?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cIt means your father made choices too.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He stared at me.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHe paused repayment.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHe told me not to worry you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHe never forgave the loan in writing.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I folded the document.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSo we are not deciding anything tonight.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>David wanted to argue.<\/p>\n<p>I could see it.<\/p>\n<p>Then he stopped.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOkay.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>That word mattered.<\/p>\n<p>Sarah looked toward the open attic stairs.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThere are more boxes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I stood.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cRaymond\u2019s?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSome.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>We spent the next hour going through only the items clearly marked with his name.<\/p>\n<p>Most were harmless.<\/p>\n<p>Old tax folders.<\/p>\n<p>Tool receipts.<\/p>\n<p>Notes about home repairs.<\/p>\n<p>A small envelope containing photographs of the twins as infants.<\/p>\n<p>Then I found something unexpected.<\/p>\n<p>A copy of a letter Raymond had written to David.<\/p>\n<p>Not sent.<\/p>\n<p>Or perhaps copied before sending.<\/p>\n<p>David sat beside me as I read.<\/p>\n<p>The letter was dated shortly after the startup loan stopped being repaid.<\/p>\n<p>Raymond wrote plainly.<\/p>\n<p>Business losses happen. Debt is not shameful. Hiding from debt is.<\/p>\n<p>I felt David go still.<\/p>\n<p>The next line was harder.<\/p>\n<p>If I keep rescuing you from every consequence, I am not helping you become someone who can carry a family.<\/p>\n<p>David put his head in his hands.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cJesus.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I continued.<\/p>\n<p>I love you enough to disappoint you.<\/p>\n<p>The sentence hit me harder than anything else.<\/p>\n<p>Not because it was about David.<\/p>\n<p>Because it echoed the lesson Raymond had later written to me.<\/p>\n<p>He had understood the problem.<\/p>\n<p>He simply had not always managed to follow his own advice.<\/p>\n<p>That made him human.<\/p>\n<p>For months, I had been turning him into a source of perfect wisdom because he was dead and could no longer contradict himself.<\/p>\n<p>But there on the page was proof that he struggled too.<\/p>\n<p>He knew where the boundary should be.<\/p>\n<p>Sometimes he crossed it anyway.<\/p>\n<p>Love had confused both of us.<\/p>\n<p>I folded the letter.<\/p>\n<p>David\u2019s face was wet.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHe tried to tell me.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI ignored him.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cProbably.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI keep doing the same thing.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNot exactly.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He looked at me.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou are finally looking.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>That was different.<\/p>\n<p>Sarah quietly picked up her purse.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI should go.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Neither David nor I stopped her.<\/p>\n<p>At the door, she looked back.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cMargaret?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI\u2019m sorry this keeps becoming bigger.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I shook my head.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThis was already here.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>She nodded.<\/p>\n<p>Then left.<\/p>\n<p>David and I remained in the empty house.<\/p>\n<p>After a while, he said, \u201cCan I tell you something awful?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cApparently that is our family hobby now.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He almost smiled.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhen Dad got sick, part of me was relieved he stopped asking about the loan.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>The honesty hurt him more than it hurt me.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI hated myself for it.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I waited.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThen after he died, I decided paying it back would just move money from me to you, and eventually I might inherit part of it anyway.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>There it was.<\/p>\n<p>The belief in its earliest form.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDid Sarah know?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cEmma?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnyone?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I looked at him.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThank you for telling me.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He seemed shocked.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou\u2019re not furious?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI am.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOh.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBut honesty is not made less valuable because it arrives late.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He nodded.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat do we do?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI talk to Margaret.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnd then?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWe decide what is actually owed.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t want you to forgive it.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThis is not about what you want.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He almost laughed.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cRight.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>The next day, I took the agreement and ledgers to Margaret.<\/p>\n<p>She reviewed them carefully.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThis is old.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cPotential limitations issues.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI\u2019m not asking whether I can sue my son.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat I want is clarity.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>She looked at me.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cLegally and morally are different questions.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cLegally, enforceability could be complicated.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI expected that.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cMorally?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThat is what I\u2019m trying to decide.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Margaret leaned back.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat did Raymond intend?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDo the records show forgiveness?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDid he continue treating it as debt?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThen you have your answer about his intent at that time.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAt that time.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHe might have changed his mind.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cPossible.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBut we have no evidence.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cCorrect.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I looked at the ledger.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat would you do?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Margaret smiled faintly.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI am not answering that.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou lawyers are frustrating.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cIt is one of our billable skills.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I laughed.<\/p>\n<p>Then she became serious.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat outcome do you want?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>That question.<\/p>\n<p>Again.<\/p>\n<p>Not what punishment.<\/p>\n<p>Not what right.<\/p>\n<p>What outcome.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI want David to understand that money does not disappear because family is involved.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThen perhaps the repayment structure matters more than the amount.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I considered that.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat do you mean?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cMaybe you do not need immediate full repayment.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cMaybe acknowledgment and consistent repayment are part of the accountability.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>The idea felt right.<\/p>\n<p>I met David two days later.<\/p>\n<p>At the cottage.<\/p>\n<p>No Sarah.<\/p>\n<p>No Emma.<\/p>\n<p>No lawyers.<\/p>\n<p>Just us.<\/p>\n<p>I placed the agreement on the table.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI spoke with Margaret.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He looked nervous.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnd?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou owe it.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He nodded.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI am not demanding full repayment immediately.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>His shoulders moved slightly.<\/p>\n<p>Relief.<\/p>\n<p>I noticed.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSo what do you want?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cA written repayment plan.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOkay.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAn amount you can actually sustain.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOkay.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnd no borrowing from anyone else to pay me.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He frowned.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI wasn\u2019t planning to.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo selling things the twins need.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cObviously.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNothing is obvious anymore.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He nodded.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cFair.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnd there is one more condition.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou finish paying Thomas first if your attorney confirms that is appropriate.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He stared at me.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBecause he lost money based partly on representations you made.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBut Dad\u2019s loan came first.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cChronologically.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He waited.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou have an obligation to repair harm where you can.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>His eyes lowered.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou\u2019re putting him ahead of you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI am choosing the order.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He nodded slowly.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOkay.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThat does not erase what you owe.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI want this documented.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cIt will be.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>We wrote a preliminary plan.<\/p>\n<p>Nothing fancy.<\/p>\n<p>Then he signed it.<\/p>\n<p>Before leaving, he looked at Raymond\u2019s letter, which I had brought with me.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cCan I have a copy?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNot the original?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He smiled.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBoundary?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cExactly.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I made him a copy.<\/p>\n<p>A week later, he called.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThomas accepted the repayment plan.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHe said it may take years.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cProbably.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI told him I know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHow did that feel?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAwful.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cUseful awful?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He laughed.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cEmma has been talking to you too much.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cProbably.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Meanwhile, Sarah\u2019s case moved forward.<\/p>\n<p>Her attorney negotiated.<\/p>\n<p>Because she had admitted what she did early, cooperated, and the lenders had not suffered the full amount implied by the forged support letters, the likely outcome appeared less severe than we once feared.<\/p>\n<p>Margaret warned me not to count on anything.<\/p>\n<p>So I didn\u2019t.<\/p>\n<p>Sarah kept working.<\/p>\n<p>Kept seeing the twins.<\/p>\n<p>Kept attending counseling.<\/p>\n<p>David continued counseling too.<\/p>\n<p>They met together once.<\/p>\n<p>Then again.<\/p>\n<p>He told me only because I asked how he was.<\/p>\n<p>I did not ask what they discussed.<\/p>\n<p>That restraint felt almost athletic.<\/p>\n<p>Then December came.<\/p>\n<p>Nearly a year since the reunion.<\/p>\n<p>One cold Saturday morning, the twins decorated a small tree at the cottage.<\/p>\n<p>David arrived with them.<\/p>\n<p>Sarah came separately.<\/p>\n<p>The arrangement had been discussed in advance.<\/p>\n<p>Everyone knew.<\/p>\n<p>Everyone asked.<\/p>\n<p>No assumptions.<\/p>\n<p>We made cocoa.<\/p>\n<p>The younger twin hung six ornaments on one branch.<\/p>\n<p>The older one complained until Sarah told him to leave it.<\/p>\n<p>David laughed.<\/p>\n<p>For two hours, we were almost ordinary.<\/p>\n<p>Not repaired.<\/p>\n<p>Not restored.<\/p>\n<p>Something else.<\/p>\n<p>A family learning new rules.<\/p>\n<p>After dinner, David and Sarah stood near the porch.<\/p>\n<p>They were talking quietly.<\/p>\n<p>No anger.<\/p>\n<p>No visible affection either.<\/p>\n<p>When Sarah left, David stayed behind to help wash dishes.<\/p>\n<p>I handed him a towel.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAre you getting back together?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He nearly dropped a plate.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cMom.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou haven\u2019t asked in months.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI was curious.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He laughed.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cGood answer.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou\u2019re not going to tell me what you think?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThat is honestly disturbing.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I smiled.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cGet used to it.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Then he became serious.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cShe\u2019s changing.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI think so.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSo am I.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThat doesn\u2019t mean we fit anymore.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He dried another plate.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBut it doesn\u2019t mean we don\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He looked at me.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThis is useless advice.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI am not advising you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThat 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